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Care Erases the Walls

3/23/2022

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"Care Erases The Walls" - mixed media on cradled wood panel, 16 x 12 x .75.  Ready to hang.  Available here and at Artfinder

After almost seventy years, I confess that though I have struggled I have never been lost and have never stopped loving—everything. And this has enabled me to inhabit life authentically. In the beginning, there were goals I was taught to work toward and these longings for worth were honed in time into personal ambitions, which all fell away. For staying true to the love of everything as our teacher has turned out to be the most enduring ambition of all. This love has made me get up when I have fallen, and has given me the strength to enter the breaks in my heart where I have retrieved my gifts. And so, I have very little to offer beyond the confirmation that unending love without preference will lead us to drink from the Mystery without leaving the world. Unending love without intent will fill every contour of existence the way light fills every hole. So, there is very little to teach. Just that love awakens everything. And care erases the walls we build between us. - MARK NEPO
The world is a bit messy right now.

But maybe it is always messy - always has been messy.
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Care Erases the Walls
There are walls between us and them.  Idealogical walls, religious walls, political walls, walls of opinion, perception, assumption - so many walls. It makes me weary, these walls.  When I read Nepo's words in this passage, my eyes welled up and my heart sighed.  Never stop loving everything.  Whoa.  Love without intent.  Love without preference.  Again, whoa.  Erasing walls.  Yes, please and thank you.

Here's some unending love from me to you, dear reader.  You show up here, in this little haven of art and musings, walls down and heart open.   I adore you.  Thank you for being here.

About the art:  beginning with a layer of black gesso and adding a rough pencil sketch over the top.  Building the layers of color and paint, mixing background paint with white gesso to keep it chalky and matte.  Layers of gold leaf interspersed, pulled forward and then pushed back.  Water sprayer and rubber wedge used, but not too much.  Finishing with colored pencil lines and scribbles, adding that final layer of texture.
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Be the Lion

3/14/2022

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Be the Lion
"Be the Lion" - mixed media on gallery wrapped canvas, 20 x 16 x 1.75.  Ready to hang.  Available March 20-21 at Artistic Souls Gallery.

If to find our way to our core is to face the lion, then to stand by our core is to be the lion. And to sustain the practice of living from our core—to live out of our courage—is to find our way in the world by tracking inner courage and where it lives. - MARK NEPO

​I am trying to live out of my courage.  

But to do that, as Nepo says, we have to find our core - face the lion.  It is pretty tempting to dodge that beast with the teeth and sinewy muscle.  It is really easy to skirt around the edges and do a little fancy footwork, keeping out of its path.  What I really want, I know, is to be the lion.  


And when you're looking for something, generally it finds you.

I didn't set out to paint this portrait.  But recently a lion came into my life.  A woman who faces her own lions and keeps on going, even when she's shaking in her rain boots.  This human IS the lion, but doesn't see it yet in herself.  I happened to snap a photo of her in a moment of fortitude and badassery, and that photo was stuck in my mind until I freed it onto the canvas.
Liberties were taken with this painting - it's in my own style, with my own interpretation of strength and resilience scraped and layered and scratched into it.  It is every one of us who has faced a lion even when terrified - even when we couldn't see our own courage.  I look at this piece and feel doubly resolved to live from my own core as I find my way in the world.  I hope she inspires you as well, dear reader.  She is you and me.

About the art:  beginning with a canvas covered in black gesso, creating a rough sketch with white charcoal.  Slowly adding in layers, following the paint where it meanders away from the inspiration photo to let texture and nuance form where it might not have been before.  Liberal use of a sprayer bottle and rubber wedge.  Scratching into wet paint with colored pencils to add texture and movement.  Resisting the urge to overly define.  Stepping away when her gaze told me the lion was in the room. 
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Shadow Beast

3/2/2022

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Shadow Beast - acrylic on cradled wood panel, 9 x 12 x .75  Ready to hang.  Available here and at Artfinder.


So while our art cannot, as we wish it could, save us from wars, privation, envy, greed, old age, or death, it can revitalize us amidst it all.   RAY BRADBURY
In times when the ugliness of mankind rears its head like a shadow beast from long ago, leaving us doom-scrolling and worried about the end of the world - there is art.

Oh, sure, looking at and appreciating art, but mainly making it.  Or trying to, anyway.  Putting my mind and hands to the task of creating has been balm.
There was a companion piece to this one - a large canvas which went through a million iterations, receiving on its surface the aches and pains and worries and fears of the week in layer upon layer of color.  Which is now covered in black gesso.  Mama said there'd be days likes these.  I am grateful for its willingness to accept all that angst and store it safely within its frame.

I think what's important is that we keep doing.  Create, sing, dance, play, move, clean, read - whatever you do, keep doing it.  Let the doing of it revitalize you amidst it all.    Wherever you are in this week of tumult, I wish you a pile of play dough and a companion or two to make weird creatures with.

About the art:  beginning with a black gesso'd wood panel and a reference photo of a dinosaur skeleton, then a rough colored pencil sketch over top.  Adding washes of warm tones and then beginning to define the bones with increasingly lighter tones.  Allowing the dark to show through and create shadows and depth.  Resisting the urge to overly define - keeping the washes light and ghostly.
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