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Mind Walkers

11/21/2019

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"Mind Walkers" - mixed media on 300 lb watercolor paper, 22" x 30".  Available here and at Artfinder.

I will not let anyone walk

through my mind with their dirty feet.
-Gandhi

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Recently I've been pondering the sometimes powerful trail of mental debris left behind by other people.  

​Of course, dear reader, we know that the mental debris is there because we allow it. Maybe unconsciously.  Maybe deliberately - because the sadness or pain or rage fuels us somehow.  The other people didn't put it there, per se.  We let it in.  And we let it set up house, build a fire, drink our water, grow tendrils through our self-worth and root there.

I've heard the gist of this quote in other ways - be careful  to whom you rent space in your mind, for example.  But this one  resonated.  I am pretty careful about what I put in or  on my body, avoiding chemicals, toxins, (most) junk food and such.  But I have not historically been as vigilant with what (or who) is allowed in my mind.
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Mind Walkers
This painting began a long time ago - more than a year - during a workshop with Pat Dews.  The woman's face peering from the black bird was a watercolor creation waiting for inspiration.  I grabbed it with the intention of painting over, but it became more of a painting around.  First the bird (the boundaries of the mind, perhaps?) and then the background (in the style of Stan Kurth) . When the Gandhi quote crossed my path, it dawned on me that the piece required a layer of protection - the ghostly coyote/wolf stands between an open mind and the world, allowing a moment to choose which thoughts to allow passage through.  Only those with clean feet, of course. Perhaps a  new doormat and boot tray are recommended?

The blog (and the blogger) will be on vacation next week as we spend time with loved ones and gather joy for our pockets.  Wishing you and yours a delightfully malarkey-filled Thanksgiving. 
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Your Heart Will Touch Everything It Meets

11/18/2019

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Your Heart Will Touch Everything It Meets
"Your Heart Will Touch Everything it Meets" - acrylic on aluminum panel, 12 x 16.  Available here and at Artfinder.

We've arrived at the final chapter in The One Life We're Given by Mark Nepo.  Whether the chapter, Staying Tender and Resilient, is better than all the others or I am just reluctant to put the book down, I've underlined every sentence.

Before you panic and leave the blog page in fear of a million quotes, I think we can safely sift the chapter down to handfuls of words in which Nepo expresses his hopes for us, his own dear readers:
"...I hope you softly trip into unexpected moments of bareness, where the glow of your heart will touch everything it meets, and you can't help but remember how dear it is to be alive."

That's a heap load of whoa there. How many of us hope to trip into moments of bareness?  Or allow our hearts to touch everything they meet?  How to stay in that openness and vulnerability and to stop resisting where life wants to take us - that is the challenge.  How to lean in when all of our instincts are to look away.  How to listen to our pain and figure out what it is saying to us.    Sharing our stories is a good way to lean in.  Sometimes we learn something in the telling.  Other times in the listening.  And now and again, a story shared in a moment of vulnerability helps us softly trip into bareness together.

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They Are Obviously Headed in the Right Direction

11/14/2019

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"They Are Obviously Headed in the Right Direction" - mixed media on cradled wood panel, 20" x 24" x 1".  Ready to hang (back has been pre-wired for hanging).  Available here and at Artfinder.

​How do any of us know where the heck we are going?

Ok, ok, we point ourselves in a direction, set goals, take some steps and maybe, like me, look for signs.    But here's the thing about signs.  They are only useful if you see them.  And then they are only meaningful if you spend some time reflecting on them.  If your family happens to have a bit of a science slant to it, you might also find yourself doing little tests to verify what you think you glean from signs.

Or, you can just head off down the path that has you enthralled and just see where you end up. :)
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They Are Obviously Headed in the Right Direction

​I suppose the point of my meanderings here is that we really can't know until we know.

Until then, we're required to sit patiently (and maybe a bit uncomfortably) in the pocket of unknowing even as we take steps in that one direction...because, "a point in every direction, is the same as no point at all" - Harry Nilsson, The Point.

And that is exactly where we are supposed to be.

About the painting - this is a "paint over."  It has been a good long while since I was painting over older pieces of work.    In truth, I was out of  boards and grabbed the nearest one.   You can see the smallest bits of the underpainting through the layers on the new piece, which has been reoriented to a horizontal.

​This piece is also painted entirely with a squeegee. Because if you are going to impulsively paint over your work, you might as well go crazy.
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The Knowable Point of Love

11/11/2019

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The Knowable Point of Love
​"The Knowable Point of Love" - mixed media on panel, 18 x 24.  Ready to hang, (hanging groove on the back)  or can be framed.  Available here and at Artfinder.

"One thinks of the smallness of human hands, of how soon they weary and of how little time is granted to their activity." RAINER MARIA RILKE

I've been pondering hands.

Makers of things, writers of words.  Gentle comforters, dramatic actors.  Mine are a bit gnarled and generally covered in paint.  They tell a story.

Hands can give and take away.  Lift up or hold down.  Push or pull.  And when we place our own hands in the hands of another, worlds are joined and oceans of distance crossed.

"...the knowable point of love is always the hand that helps another up."  MARK NEPO
Nepo, in his way with the most delicious of phrases, brings us to the very point when love is knowable.  

"We're all born with a depth of heart that only unchecked love and care can open.  We become of utmost use when we act on this opening of the heart.  Once we act, we start to live a life that is tender and resilient." (Nepo)    

​We act when we offer our hand, but also when we accept a hand offered, hold it closely and allow our hearts to open.  The reward - a tender and resilient life - can you imagine?   I am heading in that direction. It is the right way to go.
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Waiting for Santa

11/7/2019

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Waiting For Santa
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Peanut
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Norman
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The Other Reindeer
"Waiting for Santa", "Norman", "Peanut", "The Other Reindeer" - mixed media on cradled wood panel, each 12" x 6" x 1.5".  Ready to hang.  Available at The Salty Teacup.

In a wild pivot from Monday's painting, here's a little whimsy from the studio as the holiday season begins (already?) and sleigh bells echo in the distance.  These cuties are heading to The Salty Teacup in St. Johns to join in the good shenanigans which are a daily activity there. :)  

I've spent more than a year with Mark Nepo's The One Life We're Given.  It's not that I'm a slow reader (I'm a known book gobbler), but this one is so densely packed with things my heart knows that it is almost too much to read.  I have cried onto the heavily underlined pages until the ink smeared.  I have dog-eared the edges and broken the spine. I have smiled into its folds.  It is my dear old friend. 

The next several posts will be the last from this book.  Fortunately, the universe plunked a couple new books in my lap to attempt replacement.  It will be hard to beat.

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"​When the tangle of the daily has us forget how precious life is, we tend to keep what matters from what needs to be done.  Somewhere in the press of our day, in the press of a conflict that we won't let go of, in the press of a fear that makes us forget the deeper order of things - suddenly there's this shift and we make what matters a reward for getting to the end of trouble.  But trouble never ends.  It comes and goes like clouds.  That is why what matters needs to come first." (Nepo)

I wonder if Mark Nepo knows how often he slaps me in the head with his words.

Recently, I've begun to reverse the priority of things.  What matters comes first.  The "tangle of the daily" comes after.  You might be wondering what this looks like....an often empty refrigerator, a pile of ironing waiting for attention, a hike before working, a snuggle before errands, chowder with my sister before art deadlines, a long phone call with a dear one instead of sleep, painting past meal times, porch sitting in the sun.  You get the idea.   The resulting mind shift is flabbergasting.  True, I don't get as much stuff done.  The old stuff, that is.  Instead, I get this other stuff, the stuff that matters, fully completed and stuffed in my joy pockets until the task list isn't even on my mind.  

For you, dear reader, this might be easy and done every day.  For me, the one who always focused on "getting to the end of trouble" before sitting in the preciousness of life, this is monumental.   I'll stay here awhile.  You know where to find me. :)
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Radiant & Broken

11/4/2019

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"Radiant & Broken" - mixed media on aquabord, 18" x 24".  Available here and at Artfinder.

"...then show me a heart that hasn't been broken by pain or love.  Or a mind that hasn't been knotted with the tensions of life.  To be alive is to be radiant and broken.  Living with an open heart is the art of meeting our brokenness with our radiance."  MARK NEPO

In a perfect alignment of epic proportion, my inner state of being lined up with both Nepo's words and the trust-fall painting methods of Stan Kurth.  With a nod to the more visceral art style of Rick Bartow.

"What is opened in us is always more important than what has opened us."  Nepo's words here are probably the best in the whole book.  We are given permission, sweet reader,  to focus our energy on what has opened in us, and to release our grip on what put us in that opening space.  Whoa. 
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Radiant & Broken
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A little about the painting (for those who are curious).   It begins with random marks and watercolor on aquabord.  Kurth calls that building a library.  In this case, the board was turned many times, many layers and marks added until, at one point, it was a hot mess.  

Going with the emotion of the day and viewing the mess from many angles reveals a shape or two.  I use acrylic Posca Pens to sketch over top of the watercolor, isolating the shapes.  If they work, acrylic paint mixed with gesso goes over top, filling in and then sprayed to run off and reveal a bit of what is below.  The vibrant openings in the background are nearly pure watercolor.   The contrast with the more matte gesso and acrylic mix is Kurth's secret weapon, I think.  It grabs me every time.
After spending time with Rick Bartow's work, I am even more convinced that we must to keep our mitts off the painting and resist over defining.  The incomplete body form of the woman in this painting, along with the shredded, ragged textures, hints at the parts beneath the skin.  And that's what we're all gunning for - in art and in life - the parts beneath the skin where our hearts are open.  I'll meet you there. :)
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