I am Not Giving Up Pears
There is a terrifying amount of mental chatter that goes along with a shift like the one I've made (and am still making) - who's going to get all the things done? Who will keep track of the things that need to be done? What will people think when I'm not doing, going, making, solving, handling, communicating, taking care of (and so on) to my fullest ability? I am shushing myself a lot.
Thich Nhat Hanh passed away two days ago. I sobbed. His voice and words are in my ears, softly suggesting I just tend the lettuces and see the interconnectedness of all things. There is no hurry. There is only now. I think he might be right there, in the bark and fruit of the pear tree, in the sunshine and the clouds, in the rain and the soil, in you and in me, sitting there under the tree.
About the art: working from a notanized image and beginning with Stabilo woody pencils, sketching in the darks and putting a wet brush on the pencil to create a light value sketch. Slowly adding the requisite 80 million layers of light washes and resisting the desire to make hair something other than an abstract idea. Allowing sprayed water to move paint. For this piece I stayed with three colors (a warm red, a dark blue and a dark brown) plus white and titan buff. Liberal use of rubber wedge, a large, dry house painting brush and paper towels for blending.
Your writing as usual just sings off the page, wow. Thanks for mentioning the passing of Thich Nhat Hanh. Stunning isn't it. I thought he was going to be here helping forever... immortal. I do think of him as a kind of saint or bodhisattva, I can't believe he never won the Nobel Peace Prize. I read that: "Nobel laureate Martin Luther King Jr. nominated Nhất Hạnh for the Nobel Peace Prize in 1967. The prize was not awarded that year." Let's give it to him now Jen, with our hearts. And thanks for writing every week, it helps me.
1/27/2022 01:12:21 pm
Thea! I also thought he would be here forever...bodhisattva, yes. Awarding him that prize with our hearts is brilliant! And you are most sincerely welcome. xo
1/24/2022 06:43:15 pm
1/27/2022 01:12:55 pm
Dotty!!!! awwwww goodness. You are so welcome. Big hugs!
1/24/2022 09:33:25 pm
Wow! Lots if wow factor in your words. I have always heard "take time to smell the roses " - and this is exactly that phrase stated so eloquently. Too many times we race around, doing, going, trying to be all things to all people. This is a serious reminder to stop and ponder the beauty around us each and every day. It is not an easy task! Several times I have made concerted efforts to do just that...maybe, just maybe, if I make an effort everyday, it will become a way of being, a way of living without the effort. It will become as natural as breathing...we can all hope so anyway!
1/27/2022 01:13:57 pm
Carilyn!!!! Yes yes YES! Let the daily effort transform itself into effortlessness.....
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