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"Wishbone" - mixed media on paper, 15" x 22".  Available here and at Artfinder.

There is so much to say but so little movement rationed to each healing day right now.  Movement saved for a little painting, clean teeth and a change of clothes.  These typed words take nearly today's allotment.  But with each new day, a little more movement is deposited into my healing bank.  I am grateful.

I have a wishbone.  Made of metal and donor tissue, a new structure working hard to assimilate - to become a part of me.  It hurts.  Like anything foreign.  Anything as hard as steel.  Or titanium.

On my desk sits a form from the surgical center - "how to thank the donor family."  I read it every day, struggling with words.  How can you properly thank someone for the gift of a portion of their lost beloved?  A piece of them lives on in me - a wish for never-ending health and life.  A wish for connection.  A wish for love that never leaves us.  A wish for a spine that will not crumble.

When words won't serve, there is art.
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14 Comments
Carl Stoveland - 8 years ago
Integrating the new parts will take time. I think using art to say thank you is a lovely and personal gesture.
jen - 8 years ago
Thanks, Carl...I am still processing mentally, and the physical part will be lengthy but needed.
Dotty Seiter - 8 years ago
Jen: your painting is brilliant! it holds clinical science and unfathomable mystery, hard truths and tender connections. I hadn't known that your surgery involved a donor; huge gift.

Love that you've pared your days down to the essentials: paintbrush, toothbrush, clean undies.
jen - 8 years ago
Thank you dear Dotty! It is a super simple existence right now, and I am delighting in it. xo
Patricia Raible - 8 years ago
This must be difficult for someone with your energy. Life and age has slowed me down quite a lot the last couple of years. I'm looking for endurance not speed.

May your healing be soon.
jen - 8 years ago
Patricia! Endurance is my goal as well. I thought this time of healing would be really challenging, but I am, instead, thoroughly enjoying the slow pace. Other than the pain, I could do this for a long time. :)
Carol Edan - 8 years ago
Love your painting. Mysterious, sad, and heartening! Carl really nailed it ."I think using art to say thank you is a lovely and personal gesture."
jen - 8 years ago
Carol! Thank you, sweet friend. I wrestled with that form letter for an entire week. And this is what happened. :)
Stan Kurth - 8 years ago
Godspeed on your road to recovery, Jen.
jen - 8 years ago
Stan!!!!! Thank you! Always great to hear from my favorite artist of all time!!!! xo
Wendy Jones - 8 years ago
Jen - you are incredible
jen - 8 years ago
Wendy! Isn't THAT something everyone wants to hear in the morning? Thank you, dear one. You made my day!
Ela - 8 years ago
Ms. Walls,

This is incredible!!! Hoping for a speedy recovery for you, so that you can go back full time to creating beautiful art such as this.
jen - 8 years ago
Ela! Thank you so much! I appreciate all you do to make this process easier for patients like me. xo

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