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Boneyard

4/1/2021

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"Boneyard". - acrylic on arches 300 lb watercolor paper, 30" x 22".  Available here and at Artfinder.


We all know that fear is a desolate boneyard where our dreams go to desiccate in the hot sun.
- from Big Magic, Elizabeth Gilbert


It is no-fear year for me.

That doesn't mean I won't be afraid (if only!), but it does mean I won't let fear prevent me from doing, dreaming, thinking, feeling or trying anymore.  It tries, that pesky, persistent fear.  Tries to fill me with anxiety, dread, stomach-ache and shallow breath at the thought of attempting something I haven't done before.  But I don't want to live in a desolate boneyard.
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Boneyard
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And the bones....they keep appearing.  In front of my eyes, at my feet.  I bring them home, reminders and relics.  Wait for them to talk to me.  When Gilbert's quote landed in my lap, just as I'd finished googling "how to clean found bones" (desiccating in the hot sun is the preferred method, by the way), I smiled.  Bone-talk.

If you've followed my journey, dear reader, you know bones are a theme in my life.  That my very bones have taken some hits, been stitched and glued and caged back together and are, well, something to consider when I do anything.  The universe reminds me that those same bones will be here long after my essence is gone.  What do I want them to say to others?


​About the art:  this, my friends, is a failed painting.  Or rather, a rescued one.  I set out to paint one thing (plan-fully, and as if I were in control in any way) and ended up painting another. Because once I began listening to the paint, it wanted to SING a boneyard of blown-down trees in the forest.  It did not want to play at the beach!  And so the video is how it began.  It went sideways after the camera was off.  This is what happens when I try to control, instead of flow.  Thank goodness for paper that takes a heap load of paint.
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Dotty Seiter link
4/1/2021 01:27:40 pm

Jen. Whoa, those sun-desiccated bones in the grass. The desolate boneyard of fear. A no-fear year. A boneyard of blown-down trees singing in a forest. Whoa. Nugget after nugget you've plopped into my cupped hands. Thank you!

This pops to mind: "The boy has scoured the beach, gathering shells and seasmoothed glass; tidewashed bones and old seagull feathers; poppable pieces of bladderwrack and dead dried crabs," from The Bone People by Keri Hulme—have you read it? I have only impressions left now from my reading it 23 years ago; I think I may reread it.

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jen
4/1/2021 05:15:00 pm

Dotty! Thank you my exuberant, supportive friend! You always lift me with your words. :). And I have not read it....racing to order it now. It sounds like it is meant for me in this moment. xo

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Thea Fiore-Bloom link
4/1/2021 04:20:22 pm

Wow, you are a wondrous writer. My artist/mad creative scientist friend Sylvia suggested I read your blog and I love it. I'm subscribing. Thanks, Thea

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jen
4/1/2021 05:16:16 pm

Thea! Welcome. I just finished reading your Georgia O'Keeffe post about the stone....it resonates SO much. Mutual subscribing action taking place!

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Sylvia Larkin link
4/1/2021 05:39:29 pm

Jen, you have a way with words and the paint brush! The intertwined bones in your painting offer sanctuary. I have been collecting bones since I was a child and still do. Occasionally they find their way into my work . Lovely blog.So glad you and Thea connected.

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jen
4/1/2021 05:54:19 pm

Sylvia! Thank you, sweet human. I am so looking forward to seeing the bones in your work! They are surely influencing me every day. A bit of magic and spirit.

Thanks for the intro to Thea! I am already enjoying her site!

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