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"Dark Places" - acrylic on mat board, 11.5" x 8". Ready to frame. Available here and at Artfinder.
There is a recurring theme swirling about me. Stuff. Things. Collections. Knick-knacks and whatnots. Not just mine, but those belonging to others. I ache for those who are forced to part with things before they are ready. I celebrate with those who are jettisoning stuff because they want to. And I cringe as things multiply in my own house even as I admire this vase or that sculpture or that delicious, fluffy pale rose blanket at the end of the bed.
So when this article popped into my inbox, I was mesmerized. "I am my things and my things are me. I don’t want to relinquish them. This reluctance is not acquisitiveness: it is that I don’t want to abandon myself." Whoa. Lee Randall speaks my language. And yet I have a love/hate relationship with stuff.
I just finished reading The Gentle Art of Swedish Death Cleaning, which prompted me to toss all my old journals and personal diaries. The author suggested we all have a box labeled THROW AWAY to store our personal items in, and then trust our families to do just that when we die. So I raced for the trash can with armloads of journals. Why? Because when my dad passed last year, we found a folder labeled FOR GEORGE'S EYES ONLY, and of course we opened it immediately. I can't unsee the contents of that folder, and wouldn't want any of my kids to be scarred unnecessarily by my own private whatever.
As the trash truck drove away with about thirty years of my scribbles, I was prepared to be upset - to feel that I had abandoned myself, as Randall said. What I wasn't prepared for was the feeling of vast space inside. A space that could be filled with new imaginings, new dreams, new anything. Hmmmmmm. That got me thinking.
My husband and I played "Let's Move to Nebraska" during Hurricane Irma. Lately that game has morphed into "Why Not Move to Oregon" and some daydreaming about living along the rugged seastacks of the Pacific coast. So I asked him during one of our nightly dog walks/philosophy sessions what he thought about leaving everything behind and beginning again. To my surprise, my stuff-hoarding man was open to the idea of re-defining ourselves and our space. But I suppose it isn't so scary when we would still have each other: witnesses to our lives and reminders of halcyon days gone by. Also our conversation was pure conjecture. A safe zone for risk taking.
But I am looking at my stuff with fresh eyes, wondering what else I can drop-kick to make room for more potentiality. I have been firmly instructed, however, to keep my fresh eyes off a certain someone's baseball hat collection.
As the trash truck drove away with about thirty years of my scribbles, I was prepared to be upset - to feel that I had abandoned myself, as Randall said. What I wasn't prepared for was the feeling of vast space inside. A space that could be filled with new imaginings, new dreams, new anything. Hmmmmmm. That got me thinking.
My husband and I played "Let's Move to Nebraska" during Hurricane Irma. Lately that game has morphed into "Why Not Move to Oregon" and some daydreaming about living along the rugged seastacks of the Pacific coast. So I asked him during one of our nightly dog walks/philosophy sessions what he thought about leaving everything behind and beginning again. To my surprise, my stuff-hoarding man was open to the idea of re-defining ourselves and our space. But I suppose it isn't so scary when we would still have each other: witnesses to our lives and reminders of halcyon days gone by. Also our conversation was pure conjecture. A safe zone for risk taking.
But I am looking at my stuff with fresh eyes, wondering what else I can drop-kick to make room for more potentiality. I have been firmly instructed, however, to keep my fresh eyes off a certain someone's baseball hat collection.
But, to be brief:
• I, too, have a love/hate relationship with stuff.
• One of my skills/fatal flaws is my ability to exquisitely and efficiently organize/store stuff (much of which, it turns out, I don't need or use or remember I possess).
• I got rid of all but a few pages of my decades' worth of journals probably about 10 years ago. Some of it I wouldn't want others to read. Most of it turned out to be boring … even to ME.
• Dark Places: magnificent! Layered, with depths to plumb. That hint of cruciform format is compelling.
Holy mackerel, we are two peas in a pod. I also can organize stuff. Which I don't need. ACK! I am learning to embrace empty shelves in a cupboard. Perfectly organized.
Right???? Much of my stuff was intensely boring. It is a relief to know I'm not the only one tossing out this stuff.
And thank you...Dark Places makes me quite happy. First time painting on mat board, and delighting in the three paint minimalist approach. More of these in the works!
It's very liberating to part with things that no longer serve us, or just clutter up our space!
Then I realized that the shade was on. Funny how we can change the whole scheme with one switch of a button. Both so compelling!